Here I go again...

I have lost track of blogging and writting ... I don't know why but if I were to think back and list down the things I was doing when I would usually take my time and blog... I realised that most of my time I have spent is in Church. :) Nevertheless, such change that took part in my life is indeed a great footstep that i have remarkably left behind.

Lets track down one at a time...

Firstly I have been through tough moments of figuring my heart out, be it spiritually or emotionally or even physically. Now that is not so important anymore as I have leave what I could not bare; the pain of heart torement; things that I cannot solve, I leave it all up to Him. I'm more than blessed to be blessed with such endurance and mercifulness of heart. Not to self praise but that is what I think I am strongest at. I hope with that I could help in others and bring them up to their feet as long as I learn to do so myself.

After long years of prayers and faith seeking. After been confused by my own desires of looking for God the loving one. After I ventured out from my Father's home and seek in the truth that I did not know already have in my heart. I walked away not to neglect my Father. But I somehow carried Him along with me as I learnt about others. I knew a place in my heart He was carrying me instead. Because no matter what I speak about religions; the equality... no matter what I do for people in life, or even how cunning I may not know I might have been... I know He is calling me to stop searching. Because whenever I stumble ten times, twenty, fifty, hundreds of times... I end up kneeling and weep in sorrow, a cry for mercy and hope.

I may now be living my life for only 22 years but 6 years is enough to bear that journey; to feel the tiredness of faith seeking. Im considered very blessed to have walked back to the right direction earlier than some may have. The journey is infact rough and rocky... but along that path I do found great treasures of blessings. People who do not know how much I appreciate them, people who might not realise I do love them truly. And so I am here to say I thank you all for the moments you have walked throught with me in my journey. I have a long way to go. But I would love to halt here for a second to tell everyone that I have seen and learnt alot from you, I have achieved small things that meant greatly to me, I have seek love and found, embraced and lost it, endure sufferings and pray through it, smile through my sorrow and tears. I learn every step that I land my foot on. Im blessed and so are you.

To be confirmed as a Catholic finaly does not give me the same reaction I used to say to myself like "OH finally I'm done with studying the Lord" - well of course this was in my head when I was first baptised. Ah I have not tell you how and why I was baptised too. So many stories and to many to tell at a time. I will leave that to the next post :). now Let me continue. After Father annoint the blessed oil onto my forehead (apologise if I do not know the right term for that bleassed oil; yet to learn more) I felt this desires to walk another journey but this time not faith seeking but faith renewal and welcoming back from His embrace.... His home... His love.

It was hard when people asks "So how do you feel?" I honestly don't know how to answer them. I wish to explain more in the happinest that I felt. But it was not just merely happiness... there are feelings that somehow I felt relieved to be Home and to find that there are many things I can do for Him too in His home... why do I have to leave and venture out... It was that feeling that brought me to realisation that I belong to you O lord. always and for the life that you hold for me. Lael, is me, it means belonging to God: I belong to you O Lord. People asks why I chose this name, it sounds unusual and not many have used it. Yes, very rare in this century; its a male hebrew biblical name but used for female. When I first encountered with this name and its meaning, I could not stop feeling that this indeed will lead me to life of different means and purpose. Because it is where I have lift my head up and come home in His light. The meaning itself "belonging to God" gives me a definite answer, that I am coming home to You.

But Iam not spiritually fired up like some would. That does not mean something "bad", maybe to some "it is not good enough" but Good to me is when you are ehading the right direction. Thats is more than enough. I take things slow... and I learn things slow... I do things accoriding to the pace I can only handle... So I will walk this journey without force but with happiness and freedom.

There are more to this topic.. but I just could not hold my eyes open any longer. It is 4.04am in the morning 11th April 2010. Dawn is breaking. Another day to rush my project that due tues for submission, I pray that I will have the remaining energy from sleep to rush it off. I love my family, I love my dear friends. and most of all I love you God.

Good night all. see you again in the next post.! God bless

Restructuration of public spaces of the Eiffel Tower

OMG i know it is nice and good to consider about the people who is waiting and queing up down there for hours... but i'm sad.. SO sad that the Eiffel tower has to be touched and added with a new structure... it looks like a UFO landed on top.
:(
Oh my...
It has become commercialised now... sigh.. all about money huh

EIFFEL DNA

Restructuration of public spaces of the Eiffel Tower

2008

Site : Champs de Mars, Paris

Floor area : 589 m2 ( 282m2 at level 3.1 and 589 at level 3.2)

Structure: Composite material, steel connectors, and metal mesh

Budget : 1.3 millions euros

Surface structure : 1434m2 ( level 3.1 = 386 m2, level 3.2 = 674m2, level 3 = 1097 m2)

Weight of structure alone: total = 1 200 Kg

New third floor capacity: 1,700 persons per hour

Design Team : Serero Architects : Antoine Bourdeau, Louisa Gouesnard, Dusanka Malicevic Yoichi Ozawa, Jean-Philippe Sanfourche, David Serero, Taichi Sunayama, Fabrice Zaini

The structure

Our project will extend the top floor plate of the tower by grafting a high performance structure in composite material on it. The structure will be temporarily bolted to the slab without requiring any modification of the existing structure. It will expand the usable floor area from 280 m2 to 580m2. The extension is composed of 2 slabs connected to the third floor deck as well as the upper level used as an apartment of Mister Eiffel (a space provided for temporary resting of Gustave Eiffel).

Generative Design

The design is based on a generative script, creating branches out of the primary structure of the tower. Inspired by the structural concept of Eiffel of three-dimensional cross bracing beams, the script unfolds along curved lines the “DNA” of the tower. The script used the existing structure at the top of the tower ( a 10 by 10 meters cube) to generate 3 structural weaves, which are interconnected. These layers are combined to create a woven complex, which is based on the redundancy and the non-repetition of patterns to increase its structural performance. In opposition with modern engineering (based on the concept of repetition and optimization), the project for the Eiffel tower extension is based on an alternative model of high performance.

My inspiration

Talking about arts... yes I would love to go back into fine arts when I have the time to :)
These paintings below really brings me back to the life of art. It's my inspiration
enjoy...

I will find the way to heal...

I will find the way to heal...
I know I will
It would not be hard
It would not hurt
My strength with conquer my fear
My fear will fade in the light
The light that will wake me up
In a new life later...

Tears would run dry
Dry when a smile spreads
My courage will help me
I will not give up
for as long as I live
I will live to the fullest

be my guide
be my light
hold me
& lead me
and for if i fall...
wait up...
I will find myself on my feet
I know I might not catch up
but just wait up...
I will be there with You.

The dark is coming
I'm not afraid
for You are with me
hold me
embrace me
I will do my best
through the weakest moments
I will find the way to heal...

The danger of a single story

Why do I post this video up? My sister came across this video and asked me to watch it too. I'm sure some of you will know what she meant in the video but how many of us can put it in words appropriately? I think the speaker has done a great job doing so. Has she not done so this way, I'm sure many would rebel. I think she is a great speaker. A person who I would look up to for inspiration.

Yes, in our lives, many of us are easily influenced by a person's point of view. Just because Indonesian who came to Malaysia to work as a labourer, doesn't mean the name "Indon" are always portrayed as lower standard of society. Why? Why has names become the significant symbol of status? Can we not look at each other as equal human beings, equal human rights? No, everyone will say that's impossible now. Because everyone have their own perception of life. Whether your life changes or not the people around you tends to change somehow. But You alone can make a difference too. If everyone takes effort.

We might understood the video but mey not realised that we have done the same or still doing the same thing. A human's behaviour and attitude is significantly unique. No one can explain. But only, we, ourselves can find out.

KFC SHRIMP STICK

I saw the picture... 1st impression is... WAH!! SO BIG !!! + diff RM 1 from snack plate...
but get 2 BIG SHRIMP STICKS!!

give it a try... ^_^





after a while... the dishes come...





i was SHOCKED‾‾!!
i look at the dish... then look at the poster... then look back at the cashier...
= ="
he smile at us and say...

i was really damn frustrated that time... i feel being cheated!!!
but i can't scold them... because they have written

"Servings featured are for illustration purposes only."
which is smaller than bacteria that we need to use microscope to see it‾‾!!

Yeah.... this is business tricks...

BUT isn't it TOO MUCH difference - the picture and the actual size ??

no matter what angle i look at the "SHRIMP STICKS" there is no way it will be BIGGER than the CHICKEN >"<
can we SUE them ???

this is just same like showing you HONDA CITY @ RM 40K ‾‾ when you get the car.. it was KANCIL !!!



TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM THE ILLUSTRATED PICTURE‾‾!!!




THIS IS ACCORDING TO SOMEONE's EXPERIENCE. TAKEN FROM FORWARDED MAIL

LESSON from the STORY:-
ALWAYS SEE THE REAL THING BEFORE ORDERING TO MAKE SURE THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT

PLASTIC SEAWEED???

Dear all,

Those foods imported from China is a parts of the foods we consumed daily, this is a serious to us and may be you and me also a victims one day.

Suggest Darren report to the CAP (Penang Consumer Association). Or bring to press since the importer name and address is printed on the packing.

This will help more ppl

My MIL bought 1 bag of seaweed last weekend in market. She cooked seaweed soup last night, but something unbelievable happened. She washed and soaked the seaweed, then found the seaweed was different from the normal seaweed she cooked even thought same smell(seaweed smell). The seaweed...............was a PLASTIC seaweed!!!!! It is made in CHINA. The brand name, importer and distributor as per attached photo.

Pls alert if you want to cook your seaweed soup next time.

Thanks & regards,

Darren Tan Khang Lung

Sony EMCS ( Malaysia ) Sdn.Bhd. ( PG Tec )



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My life is heavenly

Whoever God or Lord is to you, I think they would appreciate receiving an
acknowledgement too...



_____


WHAT HAPPENS IN HEAVEN


I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around. We walked
side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels. My angel guide
stopped in front of the first section and said, ' This is the Receiving
Section. Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received. '

I looked around in this area, and it was terribly busy with so many angels
sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from
people all over the world.

Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section.

The angel then said to me, "This is the Packaging and Delivery Section.
Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed and
delivered to the living persons who asked for them." I noticed again how
busy it was there. There were many angels working hard at that station,
since so many blessings had been requested and were being packaged for
delivery to Earth.

Finally at the farthest end of the long corridor we stopped at the door of a
very small station. To my great surprise, only one angel was seated there,
idly doing nothing. "This is the Acknowledgment Section, my angel friend
quietly admitted to me. He seemed embarrassed." How is it that there is no
work going on here? ' I asked.

"So sad," the angel sighed. "After people receive the blessings that they
asked for, very few send back acknowledgments"

"How does one acknowledge God's 0blessings? " I asked..

"Simple," the angel answered. Just say, "Thank you, Lord. "

"What blessings should they acknowledge?" I asked ..

"If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead
and a place to sleep you are richer than 75% of this world. If you have
money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish, you are among
the top 8% of the world ' s wealthy. "

"And if you get this on your own computer, you are part of the 1% in the
world who has that opportunity."

"If you woke up this morning with more health than illness .. You are more
blessed than the many who will not even survive this day. "

"If you have never experienced the fear in battle, the loneliness of
imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation ... You are
ahead of 700 million people in the world."

"If you can attend a church without the fear of harassment, arrest, torture
or death you are envied by, and more blessed than, three billion people in
the world."


"If your parents are still alive and still married ..you are very rare."

"If you can hold your head up and smile, you are not the norm, you're unique
to all those in doubt and despair......."

Ok, what now? How can I start?

If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that
someone was thinking of you as very special and you are more blessed than
over two billion people in th e world who cannot read at all.

Have a good day, count your blessings, and if you care to, pass this along
to remind everyone else how blessed we all are

ATTN: Acknowledge Dept.
"Thank you Lord, for giving me the ability to share this message and for
giving me so many wonderful people with whom to share it. "

There is a child inside everyone of us

THERE IS A |CHILD|
inside EVERYONE of US...

How do you tell? Well simple.

1. You can't get rid of your tv games, pc games, PS2 or PS3 can you?

2. Recall how you love to be pampered when you are down? Doesn't that portrays your day today. Right at this moment? Your stress is piling up and you want your loved ones to pay attention on you?? snuggle in their arms, have a cup of hot chocolates or even coffee.

Just be carefree and act like you are in your own happy world?

dreaming away...


3. Ha! I bet you, most of your clothes are having humongous HOLES all over... esp guys... *cough* Cause no women are there to take care of you. No women to sew your bloody humongous holes together! :D



^^ just like this kid's pants (only that his pants are meant to have holes) :P 4. And don't tell me that you still don't get attracted by colourful and very tasty looking food?? Bet your hands just can't wait to grab one of those. Ha! caught you !!


What more can you deny from all these... I'm not writing the whole list down here - you tell me what else I'm missing out. :D I would gladly add them for you


Children are a little tiny inspiration and love in our hearts. They never die and never fades. It is what keeps our life full of sparks.







live your days happily and never look back to regret any bit.
Life is always colourful and colourful includes the dark days too.

God bless all of you!

The holy crab

Doesn't this look exactly like the crab they said was holy (with the sign of the cross on its shell)? Where was it found again? Melaka/ Penang? So there are actually more than one...

It is actually served in a hotel in Hong Kong, Regal Airport Hotel.

http://www.regalhotel.com/Regal-Airport-Hotel/Main/Restaurants---Bars/Restaurants---Bars.aspx